About

I am a current sufferer of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). After many years of dieting, exercising, and doing whatever I could to try to lose weight, I realized that I needed some help. I've struggled with weight all of my life and nothing ever seemed to work for me, despite hours at the gym, healthy eating, and determination. I joined Dr. Bernstein on January 5, 2010 when I finally realized that I needed help in order to feel better and manage the symptoms of PCOS.

February 12, 2010

Strange Week

Well I didn't journal on Wednesday b/c I experienced my first small weight gain.  I weighed 197.6 on Monday and went up to 198.2 on Wednesday. I was quite perplexed as I did everything right.  The nurse said its probably b/c "that time of the month" is on the way for me and that my weight may start to vary.  But still, with the amount of money I'm spending, I expect good results each weigh in regardless!

Today (Friday Feb 12th), I had a successful weigh in and am down to 196.2.  So I did lose weight this week.  I certainly am not losing at the rate I was in January but the point is that I'm still losing. 

My biggest obstacle this week will be my sisters pre-wedding party on Saturday night. There will be lots of yummy food there.  I cannot drink at all and watching everyone eat good food will be hard for me. 

I just wish I could have one cheat day - sometimes I get down b/c I cannot have a cheat day and enjoy my life just for one meal.  This diet is definitely positive but there are very few choices for meals b/c of the strictness of it.  I'm getting bored of the same old food and wish that I could have something tasty and yummy!!!  I am trying to keep my goal in my mind but sometimes its just hard.

I've realized that eating is purely emotional for me.  I eat b/c it makes me feel better; I eat when I'm sad; I eat when I'm happy; I eat when I'm bored.  I need to start focusing on other things instead of food...that is my goal for the next weeks to come.  It is very hard though b/c everything about this diet has to do with food. 

Weight updates:

Starting weight as of Jan 5, 2010: 218.4
Weight as of Feb 12, 2010: 196.2
Waist: 41
Hips: 48.5

My next measurements will be done on Wednesday so I'm looking forward to that.  I also got into a few pairs of pants that I have not gotten into in a long time - Yeah for me!  I am not quite at the point where I need to go shopping yet - I'm getting there though.  I can only wear about 2 pairs of dress pants that I have and 2 pairs of jeans.  I have a lot of pants so I will be wearing these 4 pairs until I absolutely cannot wear them anymore.